Thursday, May 15, 2008


Love sought is good, but given unsought, is better.

Love is a smoke raised with the fume of sighs,
Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes,
Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers' tears.
What is it else? A madness most discreet,
A choking gall and a preserving sweet.

-- William Shakespeare

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Kisses... kisses...kiss!


Kisses for you dear one
for the time you have spent for me
for every tinny bit of love we have shared
and for all those cherished moments together!

A kiss for you
today... hearts day
and to all the days of our lives...

as we embark on another new day together as one
in mind.. in soul... in thoughts...

and with this promise
comes my devoted true love for you...
('luv u!)

Monday, August 13, 2007

Hold on...

Hello love!

Hold on to your dreams…
Hold on to your senses
As life goes by
We aren’t close yet
But we’re sure you have me
As I feel I have you!

Hold on to your memories
Hold on to your mind
As we can reach out
Each other’s aspirations
We’ll make a promise to go beyond our dreams
Then we can be one again .

Thursday, April 05, 2007


As i sat here staring

my mind is beyond what is obvious...
Glaring light seeps through my eyes as if piercing through my brain...
Ahhh, life!
What has is offered me so far?
Has it by far surpassed my expectations?
my wants; my needs...
Yes, Life! It is an entrapment
a lair
an incubation amidst my complexing ego...
What do i need...?
don't like...?
I'm here now, not yesterday, not tommorow.
And i'm here
to stay
to live
to give
to share
to love ?

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Love notes

"Be careful in letting go of anything
you thought were just nothing...
because someday
you'll realize that the one you gave away
is the very thing you've been wishing for to stay."

Friday, February 09, 2007

Love month

If we fall in love because someone makes us laugh...
what happens when we no longer find them funny?
If we fall in love because someone is beautiful...
what happens when that beauty fades?
If we fall in love because someone can provide for us...
what happens when they lose their wealth?
Because LOVE defies all reasons...
when you truly love someone
you can't just find a reason
you just do! Don't u?
(a friend texted me this... thanks )

Saturday, January 06, 2007

An ode to my special someone...

Yesterday has gone
Today is almost over
Tomorrow has yet to come
And I’m missing you!

It was so nice
Full of dreams and warm thoughts
With desires quite pure
I can’t even tell
Who saw who first for sure?

It was almost perfect!
Two hearts enjoined
One love… one spirit… one soul.

I miss you… I yearn for you
‘would like to be near you
And hold you close
Here in my heart.

(to my only son, Byron Joseph)

Friday, December 08, 2006

When we two parted (by Lord Byron)

When we two parted
In silence and tears
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years.

Pale grew thy cheek and cold
Colder thy kiss
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sank chill on my brow—
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.

Thy vows are all broken
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me—
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee
Who knew thee too well:—
Long, long shall I rue thee
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met—
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget
Thy spirit deceive.

If I should meet thee
After long years
How should I greet thee?—
With silence and tears.

I miss you!

Yesterday has gone
Today is almost over
Tomorrow has yet to come
And I’m missing you!

It was so nice
Full of dreams and warm thoughts
With desires quite pure
I can’t even tell
Who saw who first for sure?

It was almost perfect!
Two hearts enjoined
One love… one spirit… one soul.

I miss you… I yearn for you
‘would like to be near you
And hold you close
Here in my heart.
(for my only son-Byron Joseph)

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Heartbeat # 31- Gone

Those times when we get to laugh out loud
times when we get to talk so fast
the times when you tried to tell a joke but i didnt get it but smiled
those times when you fill my world with love.. or was it?
times when we both share the oneness in our hearts...

They are gone now... gone with everything i cherished
gone with my deepest care and passion within me
gone with my dreams of getting closer and dearer
gone with the wind, they say.

It's sad, trully sad

when i don't see you anymore
when i can't see you anymore
when i should not see you anymore
when i must not see you anymore...
when i would not be with you anymore
when i must not be with you anymore
when i should not be with you anymore
when i can't be with you anymore...

What's left with life, huh

You should have cared
you should have sensed it
you should have listened
you should have shared
you should have LOVED.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Heartbeat # 30- On letting go and coping with it…

Sure thing everyone has experienced some frustrations, whether at work, with a person or in a relationship. Young and old alike, both are susceptible to misunderstandings and disappointments, which leads to bitterness in dealings and emotions. Everybody does a couple of unexpected tantrums (that’s why they are called such, anyway) whenever they are hurt or emotionally low. But do not let them overtake you, instead, learn from it and move on….

Sounds simple to undertake huh, but mind you, it is not.

Coping with the misfortunes and disappointments in a relationship, means a great deal of sacrifice and hard work. It needs one to be brave and honest with the feelings experienced in time. It allows a person to be succumbed to the dark truth, which, in effect causes such sadness.

Perhaps one reason for this is: too much expectations. If you allow yourself to be drowned with the things the other party can or would do for you then, you need to examine yourself.

Being in realm with another person’s life, deals not only with that person’s well being but also the hard reality of the situation itself. And realizing such, the fact remains that life itself is hard enough to cope with much less a friendship.

It is true they say: REALITY BITES!

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Heartbeat #29: Where art thou my Jo

From thee I begot
Thy love and soul;

From thee I shared
thy passion of thy heart;

From thee I cherished
Thy wisdom of thy mind;

And From thee I offered
my life and spirit.

For whatever purpose
Of thy self to mine

I shall but honor Thy being

Year of the DOG!

Aaarf! arf! arf! arf! Here, dogie, dogie! Come here boy!
As we know it already, this coming year 2006 is dedicated to man's best friend, the ... Dog! What a mighty year it would surely be!

Dogs are nice and cuddly and kind and... romantic in some ways. But honestly speaking, i can't keep any dog inside the house. Outside, perhaps! Afterall, they are out with watchful eyes if any intruder comes breaking in, right? I hope this coming year would give us new beginnings and more aspirations to live a better, more meaningful and friutful life! With this thought please allow me to say a prayer:

May this coming year lead all of us

to rekindle our spirit with true LOVE

clear our minds with HAPPINESS

be bestowed with more WISDOM

and be given new HOPE;

May the good LORD grant us PEACE

in our hearts to share it with the rest of the family;

And may we i be renewed with HUMILITY




Monday, December 12, 2005

Happy Holidays!

A time for giving, and surely a time for forgiving and for loving as well. Christmas season has come! For me it is the best time of the year. Even better than my natal day!

Indeed, the Lord's birthday is the most precious of them all! As an avid believer of the Catholic faith, i consider these season very Holy. And this is the best time to forgive and forget. Let us just be happy and contended, can't we? With this thought please allow me to share with you a message from one of my priest friend. He sent it to me very early this morning which opened my mind and spirit in welcoming the Holidays truthfully. Here goes:
Sometimes we wish we were small
wish we were somewhere
wish we had something
but sometimes
we wish too much
that we miss to enjoy
who we are
where we are
what we have.
And may i say: May this year's Yuletide season brings forth more new excitements, adventures, achievements, inspirations, blessings, lots and lots of new friends! Yes, new acquaintances and friendships who would enrich our hearts with joy and love. True pals are treasures. They are our wealth, without whom one would be so poor, in spirit. We must welcome newbies pleasantly with open hearts but keep our most revered and cherished ones close by . As i've read in one of the passages: Friends are hard to find but they are much harder to forget!
Merry Christmas Everyone! May your hearts be filled with kindness and gladness you never have felt- ever. As the song chants: "...the joyous season has begun...".

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Heartbeat # 28: Why do i love you?

Well, let me see...
I think i love you because: taught me lots of things
which i didn't know then; smiled at me
like you never have smiled anyone else; gave me hopes and dreams
that a better tommorow exists; shared with me little what-nots
'though they aren't
as lovely as you want them to be; greeted me "Happy Birthday"
'though it was not; held my hand
quite firmly but gently; made me feel loved
as if love was all that mattered; sang me songs
which lulled my heart up high; brought me to places
which meant a lifetime-achivement to me; played the guitar
so elegantly
and melted me slowly but softly;

Oh, i can go on like this forever!
but most of all, i love you because:

You spoke in sweet voice
and uttered words in amazing ENGLISH!

Yeah! that's it! that's why i... love... YOU!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Heartbeat #27: Here, on the shore...

Amidst this vast shoreline
my mind keeps reminiscing
the variety of emotions
within my heart
filled with so much longing and love...

The skies are bluer
the clouds aren't here
the kids are rejoicing
playing hide-and-seek.

Come! let us but get merry
to where the waves haven't gotten
and there we shall
but cherish that wonderful moments
we never had the chance of getting
while once young.

Heartbeat #26: In my solitude...

Stillness surrounds me
Sirene but cool breeze
hovers over my face...

So cold...

as cold as
the loving feeling
inside that heart of yours
which has lost
its lust and warmth
of the LOVE
we once shared.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Heartbeat #25: Ang nagabasul ko nga kalag

Oo akong pinalangga
Pasalo-a ako
Nagabasul na kining timawa
Sa wala pagtug-an kanimo sa tanan.

Wala na lang unta ako nangahas pa
Sa pagsamok-samok kanimo
Sa pag dumili pag tug-an
Sa mga butang nga angayan ra unta

Unta imong mabatyagan
Nga gibasulan ko na gayud
kining tanan.

Tingali dayag lang
Nga ako pagasilutan lamang
Ibutang sa kalimot
O dili ba hinu-on
Paga sunugon.

Ug kon dili pa gayud kini igo
Mahimo pa nga mahanaw na
Ni-ining kalibutan.

Apan sa dili pa kini nimo buhaton
Pasagdi ako nga musulti ini:

Nga ikaw akong gimahal
Sa tumang pagbati
Dinhi sa akong kasing-kasing.

Gusto lang unta ako
Nga mahidu-ol kanimo
Nga maghatag sa tanan
Ug magmahal kanimo
Hangtud sa kahangturan...

Apan luyo ni-ining tanan
Ako nagabasul lang gayud sa gihapon.

Heartbeat #24: Sa akong pag-inusara

Walay tandog
ang mga kadahonan
sa palibot...

Mingaw apan mabugnaw
ang hoyohoy sa hagin
Nga mi haguros
sa akong mga aping...

Daw susama sa kabugnawon
Sa pag-bati nga gihambin
Sulod nianang kasing-kasing...

Diin nawagtangan na sa kainit
Sa usa ta ka gugma
Nga kanhi
gi ambitan natong duha.

Heartbeat #23: Dinhi sa baybayon

Taliwala dinhi sa halapad nga baybayon
Akong ma-handuraw ug ma- aninaw
ang mga nagka lain-lain nga mga pagbati
dinhi sa akong dughan
tugob sa pag higugma ug busog sa pagbati…

Maduyogon ang kalangitan
nga mi hurot pag-sabwag
sa kasidlak sa adlaw ug maoy hinungdan
sa pag das-ag sa mga kabataan
Nga nanagan, nag dakop-dakop ug nagduwa ug tago-tago…

Tana! Mangadto usab kita
Ngadto sa dapit na wala pa ma-abti
Sa halawom nga tubig sa dagat
Aron didto mag tag-baw
Sa kahilayan
Nga wala matagamtami
Adtong mga bata pa kita.

Heartbeat #22: The dream

It was one December morning
when the breeze was colder
and the grass was greener…

It was when I had a dream.

I saw you there, standing
Eyes wide open… staring
Lips moving… as if singing
Whispering so softly saying…

Hi, I’m here... Come near.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Heartbeat #21: On loving and not being loved

Wishing here waiting
Longing for that affection
Put to a test by time.

Always forgiving
And not expecting
Almost without grudge
But overflowing with undying love.

Sensual yet forbidden
A love so true but denied
Bestowed upon thee.

Wanting to be near
And wishing it were real
Probed with trials
But cursed by man.

A love unequalled
Thus a love pefected.

Heartbeat #20: One day...

Today starts a day without warning
Molded by time and nurtured with emotion
A day, full of life and compassion
Only to be interwoven with dignity and pride.

Empty heart continues to bleed
Longing for that moment
Chosen mindfully

Nothing really matters, but life.
And the day goes on…

Heartbeat #19: The woman that i've become!

Meek, happy and contented

Full of life and true to the other

Always giving and not expecting

Realizing her man’s needs.

Hoping, praying

Never undermining

But always believing

That someday, somehow, somewhere

There awaits

And then…

Life becomes endless.

Heartbeat #18:IKAW (Filipino version of "It's You!)

Naghandum ako kanimo karon akong pinang-ga
Sama sa paghandum nako sa mga kahilayan sa kalibutan…

Ikaw ra gayud ang akong gipangandoy
nga mahiduol mag-lingkod tupad diha sa gamay apan maanindot nga banku…
ikaw ra gayud ang akong gidamgo sa kada yugto sa higayon
Ikaw ra gayud and gipangaliya ug gipangga nga makauban
Ikaw ra gayud ang akong mahagkan,mahatagan ug masaaran…
Ug Ikaw ra gayud ang akong matug anan.
Pagkanindot ba diay sa kinabuhi
kung ikaw ana-a kanunay
sa akong tupad
sa matag-unya.

Heartbeat #17: 21st Century Lady

Soaring high, among the cold beams of limelight
Softly spreading her gems, amidst the clouds of dreams
Then briefly but gently, she slides down the isle…

Her gaze is deep, her mind focused
Her wholeness embraces humanity…

She is fun and kind and sweet
She is simple yet possesses brilliance

She has emerged high, far from yesterday’s passion
She has changed…bloomed, almost like a dandelion
But smarter…nimbler… more provocative than ever!

More intimate… but secretive, she is full of life and intellect
She sways much more graceful than a swan does its tail
She is the novel girl… the woman she has become ...

Who is she...?

Heartbeat #16: Morning dew

As the shadows of dawn

Softly creeps through December fog

Giving way to early morning sunrise

Filled with the promise of brighter days!

So does this heartfelt gesture

Of Love and affection

Poured unto you

This very moment and onwards.

Heartbeat #15: A remorseful soul…

I am sorry
So sorry I ruined your day
Sorry for my style of not telling you everything
I regret it deeply. I was a fool then… that I know now.

I should not have messed up with you
It was so wrong of me. I deserve to be punished
Wiped out

But before you do please let me tell you
How much I love you!

I simply care for you
Want to be with you
Likes to share with you
All that I have…

And still if it isn’t enough
You can take away my soul
Burn it in hell
and let it fade away for good.

but I would still be sorry

Heartbeat #14: For You!

My dearest...

Let me say these two powerful words forever!

For they are not mere letters

They are my emotions...

Let me love you like this my way, because...

You are one beautiful creation

To deserve such wonderful feelings

I trust that you keep it in you

With utmost care...

And when i am old

And you are around

May you be near me

Beside my death bed.

entry # 2 -

Heartbeat #13: Thoughts

I thought of you today

the same thought that haunts me

since I first met you

you were so naive then

you have that great smile

whom everyone loves!

Maybe you are an Angel from up there

to console us down here

to give love and affection

but love only meant for:

a dear brother

a sweet sister

or even for a mother . . .

you are so near yet so far

far enough I couldn't touch you

so far I could not even kiss you

but in spite of these obstacles

I am happy

happy to know you are always here

for me!

(entry # 1

Heartbeat #12: Just thinking

I thought of the birds
When they chirp on early mornings

I thought of the wind
Hovering around

And I thought of all the nice things
I see!

Then... I thought of you…

Now... Today!

Heartbeat #11: Goodnight...

Tonight I shall
But sleep early
For always there is the promise
Of beautiful mornings
Through wary nights.

And together with God’s
Words of wisdom
May we cherish
A peaceful but
Dreamful slumber.

Heartbeat #10: LIVE... not just exist!

Ah… LIFE! It’s so beautiful, isn’t it?

Won’t it be just right to feel it and be alive?
After all, it is the greatest gift.

Indeed life is a gift
And gifts are treasured
Gifts are cherished
Gifts are loved.

And when you are in love
You feel right
You feel good
So good it seems like nothing else matters!

Why frown when you can smile
Why worry when somebody cares
So live to feel… Care to live

Not just by being there… but wanting
Not just wait… but lead
Not just receive… but give

And not just exist… but LIVE!

(entry #3-

Heartbeat #9: Remember?

the first time we talked...
your sweet voice echoed
through my mind
‘twas a surprise!

the next time we spoke...
tears ran down my cheeks
solitarily fearful.

the first time we touched...
you held my hand
I held yours.

the next time we touched...
we kissed, on the cheeks
then on the lips.


Heartbeat #8: Touch

Let me touch you today

With my thoughts

And may you feel

The extra beat of LOVE

My heart murmured…

Heartbeat #7: It's You

I miss you today my dearest
Just as I miss most of life’s best.

It’s you I’ve always wanted
To be near and sit beside with in that petite but cozy bench…

It’s you I dreamed of
Every second of every hour…

It’s you I cherish and care and share…
It’s you I kiss and give and promise…


It is only you whom I can be open with…

It’s so good to know how lovely life is!
With you on my side
Today and always!

Heartbeat #6: My thoughts

My dearest,

Let me say these two beautiful words forever
For they aren't mere letters
They are my emotions...

Let me love you like this, my way.

You are such a wondeful person to deserve such wonderful feelings...
I trust that you keep it in you with utmost care.

And when i'm old and you are around
May you be beside me in my death bed.

Heartbeat #5: Friends...

Today, as always been
Was such a fulfilled day for me
So I asked myself, why?

Is it because...I got high grades?
Or because...I saw the latest movie in town?
Or might be because... I have bought new things?

No, I guess not.

I realize I am happy not because of so many things
But because of one single but very important reason...

I'm glad because...

I came to know you, and you came to know me!
Yes, we are but FRIENDS.

Heartbeat #4: Why?... What?... How?

For some time now i kept thinking why:

- why on earth did our paths crossed?
- why did i get to meet you?
- why did you become close to me?
- why did i see you the way i do now?
- why are these happening to me?
- why are we friends today?
- why ?

And for what unfathomed reasons:

- what made me feel this way?
- what made you decide to become close to me?
- what did i do to deserve such a true and gorgeous friend like you?
- what made all these possible now?
- what have you been thinking when you met me?

How may one understand ?
- how did you react when i said you are one great creation?
- how are things with you before you met me?
- how come you did not resent my friendship?
- how mad did you get knowing i like you?
- how easy could you ignore me and forget about me but didnt?
- how are things with you now that i keep flashing into your life?

i hope you have answers for all these inquiries because i don't. I only have thoughts and feelings and cares and dreams and hopes and wishes and prayers for you forever!

Heartbeat #3: Today

I made a promise to myself
Not to cry for any reason but Love
It seemed impossible a task to keep.

So I made another promise
To love and be loved for love's sake
Then it seemed worthwhile to feel.

So I loved and still love
And will continue to love
To my heart's content until I can
Then I did no promise.

For what good does promises bring
When all you can do is feel and care and love... Always.

Heartbeat #2: My happy Heart!

How Do I Love Thee?
Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height my soul can reach;
when feeling out of sight for the ends of being and ideal grace.

I love thee to the level of every day's most quiet need by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.

I love thee with the passion put to use in my old griefs and with my childhood's faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose with my lost saints.

I love thee with the breath, smiles, tears, of all my life and if God chooses

I shall but love thee better after death.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Heartbeat #1: The heart

The heart is the pumping station of our body, bringing in and out blood to circulate every tip of vein there is. With every beat it sends off life carrying oxygen and food to all the cells inside us. When the heart stops pumping,we would die unless a gadget which specifically oxygenates our blood and make to circulate all over our body is placed.

One interesting story about the heart goes like this:

"Tomorrow morning," the surgeon began, "I'll open up
your heart..."

"You'll find Jesus there," the boy interrupted.

The surgeon looked up, annoyed "I'll cut your heart
open," he continued, to see how much damage has been done..."

"But when you open up my heart, you'll find Jesus in

there," said the boy.

The surgeon looked to the parents, who sat quietly.
"When I see how much damage has been done, I'll sew your heart and chest
back up, and I'll plan what to do next."

"But you'll find Jesus in my heart. The Bible says

He lives there. The hymns all say He lives there. You'll find Him in my

The surgeon had had enough. "I'll tell you what I'll
find in your heart. I'll find damaged muscle, low blood supply, and
weakened vessels. And I'll find out if I can make you well."

"You'll find Jesus there too. He lives there."

The surgeon left.

The surgeon sat in his office, recording his notes
from the surgery, "...damaged aorta, damaged pulmonary vein,
widespread muscle degeneration.
No hope for transplant, no hope for cure. Therapy:
painkillers and bed rest. Prognosis:" here he paused, "death within one
year." He stopped the recorder, but there was more to be said. "Why?" he
asked aloud. "Why did You do this? You've put him here; You've put him in
this pain; and You've cursed him to an early death. Why?"

The Lord answered and said, "The boy, My lamb, was

not meant for your flock for long, for he is a part of My flock, and will
forever be. Here, in My flock, he will feel no pain, and will be comforted
as you cannot imagine.
His parents will one day join him here, and they
will know peace, and My flock will continue to grow."

The surgeon's tears were hot, but his anger was

hotter. "You created that boy, and You created that heart. He'll be dead in
months. Why?"

The Lord answered, "The boy, My lamb, shall return

to My flock, for He has Done his duty: I did not put My lamb with your flock
to lose him, but to retrieve another lost lamb."

The surgeon wept. The surgeon sat beside the boy's

bed; the boy's parents sat across from him. The boy awoke and whispered,
"Did you cut open my heart?"

"Yes," said the surgeon.

"What did you find?" asked the boy.

"I found Jesus there," said the surgeon.

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